Oh, goodness, hon. Don't ever think nobody will care, because that really isn't true. *hugs, warmly* I sure do, for one.
I'm really not sure what to say, to be honest, but I really hope you'll live; not for my sake, but for yours. You're a great person, and although we're not very close anymore, I have many good memories of you, time spent on RCM and all that.
Building on what the previous commenter said, there are indeed hotlines and the like that you can turn to. There is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, 1-800-273-TALK, as well as the the Kristin Brooks Hope Center and its Hopeline, 1-800-SUICIDE.
The American Psychological Association has a help center page; I'm not sure how much practical help it offers to someone in your situation, but at the very least they have a page on suicidal thoughts. There's also the Samaritans, and the National Council for Suicide Prevention has a resource page that may be of help.
There may also well be community services that can help you free of charge, but I don't know where you live, so I can't recommend any.
It's good that you've got your gaming group's support, though. Stick with these people, and rely on them when you need to. They're your friends, and they will support and assist you when you need it.
Stay safe, hon. *hugs again* I hope everything will improve for you in the future.
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I'm really not sure what to say, to be honest, but I really hope you'll live; not for my sake, but for yours. You're a great person, and although we're not very close anymore, I have many good memories of you, time spent on RCM and all that.
Building on what the previous commenter said, there are indeed hotlines and the like that you can turn to. There is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, 1-800-273-TALK, as well as the the Kristin Brooks Hope Center and its Hopeline, 1-800-SUICIDE.
The American Psychological Association has a help center page; I'm not sure how much practical help it offers to someone in your situation, but at the very least they have a page on suicidal thoughts. There's also the Samaritans, and the National Council for Suicide Prevention has a resource page that may be of help.
There may also well be community services that can help you free of charge, but I don't know where you live, so I can't recommend any.
It's good that you've got your gaming group's support, though. Stick with these people, and rely on them when you need to. They're your friends, and they will support and assist you when you need it.
Stay safe, hon. *hugs again* I hope everything will improve for you in the future.